First impressions are overrated

That's what I think anyway.

First impression can come in a few ways:
1) When you first see a person for the first time.
2) What you heard about a person. whether you know them or not.
3) When you think you know a person after a few hour @ day.

Me, I don't like to give a first impression on a person I only met for the first time. So, whenever people asks me what I think about them when I first saw them, I would just say "You seem okay".
The truth is, when I first met someone, I usually don't remember them too well. Not their name, nor their face. I may, sometimes remember you after a long time of what you were wearing, or holding or doing when I first saw you. That is only, if I ever become close to you.

There is this girl in my campus. I'm close to her now. We've been friends since our first semester here. After a year and a half of being friends, I suddenly remember, during orientation week, there was this girl sitting next to me carrying the same bag my friend did. That's when it came to me "Oh, it was her then".

Then, there is the chain of first impression.
A friend of yours met someone. A new 'friend'. Then, when your friend came back, they will tell you everything of that person. Whether its love, hate, annoyed, blank or stupid and the list goes on and on. That's your friend first impression on he/she. But listening to their story, you'll feel like you already know he/she and you felt the same way as your friend. Your friend first impression was chained down to you.
It's like the feeling of hatred you felt when a friend told you about someone the loath. Without knowing who that person really is, you felt the same way as your friend, minus the real experience.
That's how the chain works.

I really don't like it when someone bad mouth a person they just knew.
You come back from wherever you were and you just bad mouth someone who, for a few hours, you think is lame, weird and a loser. Its not that I never bad mouth someone. Its just that I don't bad mouth them immediately after I came back from that first meeting. Its just rude. Even a whole year wouldn't be enough for me to really get to know someone.

This is why I'm super careful when choosing friend. By just listening at how they talk to you after some time of knowing each other, you can easily know.
If they came home and bad mouth a friend of him/her, how can I be sure he/her didn't do the same thing to me before?

Anyway, this is just an opinion from my point of view. You may have your own.

Don't bash me for wanting to voice out my own. 

Don't judge a book randomly

So, that's basically my way if saying Don't judge a book by its cover or its content. Looks may be deceiving. A person's heart is even more so. Some people may look great to our eyes. But to other people, they could already see flaws at first sight. Go to a book store and browse the fiction section. Then a book caught your eyes and it practically screams "Come on pick me up. I look interesting to read". Flip it through and some would say "Oh my God, this book is damn funny", and others, "This book is a joke".
        And the next thing you know, flaws will starts to form and "Oh my God" change to "This is a joke. What was I thinking?" We'll this case may only apply to certain kind of people like of those who hates chick flick book and bought a chick flick book.

Once upon a time, you met a person. At first sight you thought "She's okay".

Then one day, things change. She just suddenly became the coolest person you know. Everything that came out of her mouth just wows you. She mixes with 'the' crowd, she got the brain and everywhere she go, she'll be noticed.

But, after seeing so many great things about a person, you'll bound to wonder, "Isn't there anything she lacks?". Well, the trick is to never questioned. Because I questioned, it smack me right in the face.

Then, all those great things you used to see in her just vanished. Now, all the things that came out of her mouth just spells BULLSHIT to me. 'The' crowd she mix with? Well, that's just the ticket to the life she's having now.

Now now, I know what you're thinking. That's harsh. But, different people just see things differently. And you want to know what actually smacks me in the face? One of her act. It doesn't just smack me in the face by surprise, it almost got me into one hell of a trouble.

Moral of the story? Well for me it would be,

Never trust a person until you fully understands each other and has gone through thick and thin together. Cause that's what build a good relationship, for FRIENDS or LOVERS. 

Let's be friends :)

For as long as I've lived, I know that I don't befriend someone easily. And I literally don't have a so called 'first impression' towards anyone. If anyone asks, I'll say "Nampak macam okay".

Half a year, I'll be able to talk comfortably with the person. A year will make me able to trust the person to be around me often. More than that, I'll never forget that person face. I may forgot their name, but not their face. More than 5 year, I'll never forgot neither their name or their face.

Yes, apparently this is something I can actually say while I'm still . . . young.

Most of the first impression people have on me?

I look arrogant. Fierce. Unfriendly.

I definitely agree with all of the above. Unless you talk to me, you'll never know how I really am. So please do talk to me. Although I must warn you it'll be an awkward conversation at first, but if you're someone who is bubbly and talkative, I will be glad for your company.

There's this other thing. My stare. Sometimes I'll look at a person for one second, then turn back the other way like a snob. I actually do this quite often. Especially towards guy. I don't know why, I just do.

But,

if you ever, ever somehow make me grew a dislike feeling towards you, then I'm sorry but I'll hate you until you say sorry. I actually hate this one guy so so much just because he didn't say sorry after he pushed my hand when it was in the air while I was trying to put on my backpack.

Now, I feel full of loathe whenever I see his face.

Yes. I am vengeful person.

Sorry makes all the difference.

To a person like me

2011

Sup peeps.

So, I'm back at my college. Yay? Oh, well. I guess it's a good time to be starting class after a month and a half of not doing anything but eating and sleeping and gaining weight. Its 8.09am and I'll have class at 3pm later. I'm a little blurred about what am I to do right now. So, update. This blog was totally dust. Its like someone died in this or something and it's a little weird that bb Teah wasn't complaining. I guess she just got tired of telling me my blog was all dusty.LOL. Sorry babe. Something happened to my brain.

Since its only the first week, I'm pretty sure a lot of class will be canceled. Until then, I guess I'll be rolling on bed and of course, movie marathon. Whooop!

I have nothing more to say.

Until I have a damn good life ahead.

Goodbye LOVE.

écraser, l'amour, la haine

It's study week and I'll be home until Wednesday. I cant be staying here for too long cause I need to study. As I had tagged my bbs in my status, I've been feeling lazy and down as finals approaching. But thanks to my housemates, who study like a maniac, all I have to do is just crash their room with loads of books, and automatically my books will scatter all around their bed as theirs' on their table.

Many sorry to my bbs for not keeping up as much with them as possible. Sorry :(

Well,
life has been hectic. I just finished with my last test last night. Sunday night. Awesome.

As my favourite quote says

"In the end, you'll realize you only have few true friends. But that's better than having many random friends"

but I don't have many random friends. But I always know I have my true friends with me. No matter where they are. Always.

I've been tense this pass few weeks. The fact that I'm studying in a deep forest never left me. Even now.

Even thou I'm the kind of person who mostly stays indoor when I'm home, at least I have the feeling that things are happening around me. At my hostel, we have a great view of the nature. But everything felt static. Dead.

Thus, I've been walking around the campus, going up the great hill of Beting. But still, it gave very little effect on me.

I don't know what else to do to make the feelings go away. I feel like my emotion is at an unstable condition.

I NEED HELP

I need extra social skill

I really mean it. My social skill is limited to,

"What's your name?"

"Which block?"

"What course?" -_-

Yes, lame. I am.

I've been expecting that from the very beginning. That's why I always describe myself as someone who always keep to myself and a good listener. I mostly always listens, and say a little. To those who knows me, would probably be familiar with the 'me', who'll sit in a corner doing her own thing, or, sit around the group lol-ing my ass off.

But, now that I'm in a new place, I find it hard to get used to the surroundings, even though I liked it, especially the socializing part. Finding a clique is a zero chance. It's not high school, so finding a clique is out of the question. Finding real friends, yeah, I'm still working on it. Not to say that the friends I already have now are not my real friends, its just that, its still early adding to the fact that I still don't know how their personality is like and everything.

Still, I already spots the ones who neglect me or look down on me or doesn't even want to look at me. I just hoped you'll change your way of looking at me one day. The way I do things doesn't always reflect who I am on the inside :)

Right now I totally envy Fatiehah Zaini bb. Since you're all sooo charming and got just the right amount of social skill and get along with everyone just fine. I know you have problems making friends at first too. But I'm guessing that at teast you got talking.

Remind me again your first impression towards me,

You : *bump*

Me : *glare*

You : 'Aphal minah ni?'

Precious!!! :) I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

ALL OF YOU ♥