écraser, l'amour, la haine

It's study week and I'll be home until Wednesday. I cant be staying here for too long cause I need to study. As I had tagged my bbs in my status, I've been feeling lazy and down as finals approaching. But thanks to my housemates, who study like a maniac, all I have to do is just crash their room with loads of books, and automatically my books will scatter all around their bed as theirs' on their table.

Many sorry to my bbs for not keeping up as much with them as possible. Sorry :(

Well,
life has been hectic. I just finished with my last test last night. Sunday night. Awesome.

As my favourite quote says

"In the end, you'll realize you only have few true friends. But that's better than having many random friends"

but I don't have many random friends. But I always know I have my true friends with me. No matter where they are. Always.

I've been tense this pass few weeks. The fact that I'm studying in a deep forest never left me. Even now.

Even thou I'm the kind of person who mostly stays indoor when I'm home, at least I have the feeling that things are happening around me. At my hostel, we have a great view of the nature. But everything felt static. Dead.

Thus, I've been walking around the campus, going up the great hill of Beting. But still, it gave very little effect on me.

I don't know what else to do to make the feelings go away. I feel like my emotion is at an unstable condition.

I NEED HELP