Are you suicidal?

So, actually I saw this article in the paper about a women in London who died of drinking too much water. At first she drank 4 liter water a day and lose 5.2kg in a week. So basically she was trying to lose weight. And then she thought that if she drink a lots of water she will lose lot of weight. After 3 weeks, she lose 6.3kgs. Then she faint, and die. The cause of her death is that her brain swells because receiving too much water. So I kinda thought, 'Wow,that is an easy and painful way for those who wants to kill themselves.' No no. Don't get me wrong here. I'm not convincing people to kill themselves. But if you have to do it, stop using the knife and all those stuff that can torture you before you die. I am actually a bit curious about those who want to kill themselves. Because like everyone have a problem, but you don't see everyone in the world killing them self. If that happen, then there will be no human being in this world. I have to be honest if I want to talk about this. I am suicidal. There is a few times where I wanted to try it. But everyone knows that suicide is a sin. No matter what religion you are, it is a sin right? So, you really want to die with a sin? Why? Is it because the sin you're already carrying is not enough? That why I never done it. I already have a lot of sin which I know of and don't know of. And I'm gonna put on another the second I die? No way. Nobody is happy with their life. Well, some people is actually happy with theirs, but nothing last. Well I'm not happy with my life either. Sometimes, yeah. But the unhappiness conquers most part of my life. So it still make me an unhappy person sometime. But hey, look at the president all around you. They have a big problem. Their country problem, the world economy thing stuff that is not stable right now(am I right?).And their own. But you don't see them killing themselves. Before you do it, just think about people who care for you. Your family, your friend, there even people who you don't even know exits that cares for you. There's always someone there. If you want to kill yourself because you think no one care anymore, well news flash, there always people there. You just have to look, look around you, look everywhere. Just don't give up so easily. It bothers me seeing it in the news everyday. Its like a carnival. So, stop suicide and do something that you know can help yourself and others.

OMG. Feels like a hungover.

Yesterday, me and my sister watched Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging. It was so funny and a bit gross. At the gross part, we kinda let out a big and loud EWWWW!!! lol. My other sister was washing cars outside and she was like 'Keep it down. The whole neighbor could hear you'. Then my sister went to her laptop chatting with her friend and I remember a friend said she watch Cloverfield and said 'Best gile'. So I watch it. Kinda. The first fifteen minute through the movie, I felt like vomiting violently. Then I just skip the whole movie till the end. Then I ask my sister 'Have you watch this?'. And she said not yet. And I was like 'Good. Don't'. It's exactly like this game we used to play back when I was 12, the going-around-shooting-people game thing. I always stop after 3 stage. It makes my head spin. I have motion sickness and that movie just made me sick. I'm pretty sure someone actually vomit in the theater while watching Cloverfield. Then I thought, why can't they just shoot a f****** proper movie. I don't even know what happen to that freaking monster at the end anyway cause everyone died. Stupid movie. Because of that sickeness I drank a whole bottle of 1.5 litre water and have to take painkillers before I sleep. Once, my sister said 'Thanks for the heads up'. This morning I woke up with a huge headache. It feels much better after I took a shower. But I'm all alone right now. Hana,come over!!!!huhu..

The same old boring day. As usual.

My mom is not going to be home for 2 weeks. And next week my sister will be gone back to college. And I'm going to be stuck here, ALONE! Fantastic! Well at least I have my trusted, silent, and non-boring books. At least they don't have a mouth. I'm getting sick of listening to people talking. And some......other stuff that I can't say. I finished Remember Me that I told you before on Monday. On my book list blog, there's only its synopsis. It took me like four days to get the detail synopsis that I promised you right. Well anyway, my sister cooked today, and she's dissapointed. She said "It doesn't look like in the picture". Lol. But I don't really care. So I just ate it. And another thing is I'm eating like a pregnant woman, well not literally, but seriously, I'm eating so much I scared myself. At first I thought it was one of those condition, but apparently, its not. I think I might be having an emotional disoder or something. Cause every night after turn off the light, I just have so much on my head, its killing me. I think I'm going insanely nuts b.k.a crazy. Well anyway, I'm hungry. I'm gonna go eat.