Thursday, March 26, 2009

Happy Birthday to my beloved ABAH!

Yay. Today is my dad's birthday. Hurm.....I wonder what my mom has in mind for today. My parents would probably go out tonight, without me that is, and celebrate. I always got left at home. *sigh* Well I'm fasting today and later I have tuition class. Yah! I'm so tired. It feels like I haven't rest forever. And I've been having headache occasionally nowadays. Well I guess thats it. Just keeping you updated. Thanks for reading. Annyong.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

How I Handle My Stress

So, you probably know that this year I'm sitting for the most important exam EVER! So I've been stressing so much lately. I’ve remembered the year when I’m sitting for PMR. A month before the exam, I cried so much. I believe some of my friend might remember. It’s so crazy I thought I was going to die. Just like this year. But this year, it’s a bit different. I cry every month. That’s the only way I could do to release the entire burden. Sometimes I even have to force myself to cry because it’s just way too much for me to handle. I really hope for this year to end. Especially I’m the last person in this house to finish school and 6 years late. Urgh! And my parents and my brother especially is expecting so high from me. I really don’t want to let anyone down. I’ve tried everything to handle those stresses. I soo hate screaming on the pillow. I think it’s not worth it. Because for me, I have to see and hear the stress gone. And you can’t really hear your voice when you scream on the pillow and I don’t feel the satisfaction. Crying on the other hand, you could see your tears and the sobs is really wow. I would feel so much better after crying. I don’t have to worry about anything. It’s all going to be handle delicately.