Monday, October 18, 2010

écraser, l'amour, la haine

It's study week and I'll be home until Wednesday. I cant be staying here for too long cause I need to study. As I had tagged my bbs in my status, I've been feeling lazy and down as finals approaching. But thanks to my housemates, who study like a maniac, all I have to do is just crash their room with loads of books, and automatically my books will scatter all around their bed as theirs' on their table.

Many sorry to my bbs for not keeping up as much with them as possible. Sorry :(

life has been hectic. I just finished with my last test last night. Sunday night. Awesome.

As my favourite quote says

"In the end, you'll realize you only have few true friends. But that's better than having many random friends"

but I don't have many random friends. But I always know I have my true friends with me. No matter where they are. Always.

I've been tense this pass few weeks. The fact that I'm studying in a deep forest never left me. Even now.

Even thou I'm the kind of person who mostly stays indoor when I'm home, at least I have the feeling that things are happening around me. At my hostel, we have a great view of the nature. But everything felt static. Dead.

Thus, I've been walking around the campus, going up the great hill of Beting. But still, it gave very little effect on me.

I don't know what else to do to make the feelings go away. I feel like my emotion is at an unstable condition.



  1. tieq.loves.u.hihi.:DOctober 18, 2010 at 11:18 PM

    aww hunny!! =) just try ur best for the finals den like seriously we can all just chill together! miss hanging out with evry1 u know.. n I so get it, u guys will probably be the best (and only) besties I have in the history in my life but I LOVE it.. mwah!! :D

  2. sigh. that's exactly how I felt at matrix perak. evry1 there was like...aliens.
    I could hardly connect with them, or understand their weird jokes. but still, I kept on being positive. I knew I could survive, for the sake of my parents =3 I missed u guys very badly! Now that I'm at sunway, I started to miss matrix... there's beauty in something we hate, that's for sure. Try to love it , ok! You're not alone, babe. We'll still keep in touch. Life goes on! Love u!


  3. Be cool babe , i know u can sort all these things out :) Put ur widest smile and be thankful in everything . Whenever u guys have gone thru the exams , it will be me who gets all tensed up then .

  4. lol. teah sounded like a mom. XD to una, ak pun feel lonely life has little


  5. haha aish.. n omg d lagu sedih la plak.. lol.. =(

  6. *sigh*
    n i'm going back tomorrow. I'll see you guys soon k?

  7. that is exactly what im going thru rite now... i miss you guys badly that i always think bout our good moments (quarrels & fights INCLUDED!)
    these great memory made me smile n relaxed my mind.

    i drew something everytime i found myself starting to do weird stuff like biting my nail or pulling my GREAT GREAT long hair.. so, do whatever u reduce the tension, at least. LUVS !

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