*Sigh* Its that time of the month again

I had a test this week, from Tuesday to Thursday. I wasn’t sleeping right. I was pushing myself because of the test. I studied in the evening like at 4 to 5.30, and then I took a break till 8 something, then I continued until 11.00. Then I woke up again at 4 or 5 in the morning. Well the effect of this messy sleeping cycle:

1. I got sleepy while doing the test.

2. My brain got into a black spot of some kind.

3. I was feeling so hot like burning.

4. And I was feeling very uncomfortable.

5. I had headache the whole week.

6. Plus I was on my period.

I was and still am very stress. I have three essays I have to finished by Monday and an assignment about some great person who has done something somewhere. And right now I’m having a throat problem and every time I cough, it goes to my head and my head feels life something knocked on it. Last night, I had to sleep face down because my head hurts. *Sigh* Now I know how suffering feels like. But at least this kind of suffering doesn’t last forever. Wait till I see the real world out there. There’s much more to come in my way.

How I Handle My Stress

So, you probably know that this year I'm sitting for the most important exam EVER! So I've been stressing so much lately. I’ve remembered the year when I’m sitting for PMR. A month before the exam, I cried so much. I believe some of my friend might remember. It’s so crazy I thought I was going to die. Just like this year. But this year, it’s a bit different. I cry every month. That’s the only way I could do to release the entire burden. Sometimes I even have to force myself to cry because it’s just way too much for me to handle. I really hope for this year to end. Especially I’m the last person in this house to finish school and 6 years late. Urgh! And my parents and my brother especially is expecting so high from me. I really don’t want to let anyone down. I’ve tried everything to handle those stresses. I soo hate screaming on the pillow. I think it’s not worth it. Because for me, I have to see and hear the stress gone. And you can’t really hear your voice when you scream on the pillow and I don’t feel the satisfaction. Crying on the other hand, you could see your tears and the sobs is really wow. I would feel so much better after crying. I don’t have to worry about anything. It’s all going to be handle delicately.