Watch it.

Your gesture, your attitude, your words, your action. Watch it all. Sometimes you think, 'Screw everyone, this is who I am. Who are they to judge'. Its true, but, everywhere you go, people are judging you.

Everyday, everywhere, everyone people are judged. People judge us and we judge people. Its only natural for people to judge others. When walking down a street, you see someone who you thought was weird from what they're wearing, you just judged someone. And you don't even know them. Which proves you don't need a license to judge.

You know what the worse part is? When you judge someone you know. 

A few days ago, while I was at the library, I saw this group of friends studying. Out of those several people in the group, there's this one person I can't take my eyes of. Don't get me wrong, it not that she was dressed weirdly, its that she was being treated like an outcast. She was sitting together with them, and everyone socialize with each other but totally ignored her like she wasn't even there. I can only think of two reason for the way they're acting, either they fought or group judging. 

The same thing had happened to me once, but that's what make me who I am today. I'm actually quite thankful for it.

That is why you should watch yourself. If you think its worth changing for other, then do it. If you don't then find others who would appreciate you more.

I am currently in the middle of judging a person that I see everyday. It's tiring. The cause, words. Forgive me for this, but she needs to shut up now. She never, ever watch her words. I know that she just said it as a joke, but seriously, she needs to be more careful about what she said. If you think something's funny, doesn't mean the whole world think its funny. When I say something, she always argue. It's like she must win with every word that came out of her mouth. Even when she argues with another person I feel like screaming "SHUT UP ALREADY!"
That is why, I don't talk to her anymore. Well I tend to avoid it/her. Forgive me dear, but, you're not the only person who matters in the world.

And another thing, judging is not gossiping. Gossip spreads like wildfire, judging stays with you if you wish it and turns into another thing when you tell it. 

Sarcasm much?

What is sarcasm? Well this is what I got from Concise Oxford Dictionary.

Sarcasm 

•  n. the use of irony to mock or convey contempt.

 My opinion on sarcasm? I don't like it. Period. Some people may use on occasional term to tease someone. Well, I tend to avoid it. I may sometimes, unconsciously, give sarcastic remarks on something or someone, but usually when I realize my mistake, I would immediately apologize and say it was a joke and pat them in the back.

Sarcastic comments tend to hurt people. Even if you laugh at the wrong situation, it will give the sarcasm effect. And to be honest, when I get emotional I too just blurted out the first thing in my mind.

Especially to these who always use hurtful remarks on me.

I must say, even though I may look stone on the outside, I do get hurt by words. It's just I'm not the type to show them. If you think sarcasm might help you bond with someone, well think again.

For me, I tend to avoid those who make sarcastic comment as a habit. It's not good for me if I just keep letting myself get hurt by words.

So, here's some advice.

• Think before you talk.

• Whatever you think is funny, is not funny to everyone.

• And stop being selfish with your words.

It's free advice. Take it or leave it. Till then

Au revoir

First impressions are overrated

That's what I think anyway.

First impression can come in a few ways:
1) When you first see a person for the first time.
2) What you heard about a person. whether you know them or not.
3) When you think you know a person after a few hour @ day.

Me, I don't like to give a first impression on a person I only met for the first time. So, whenever people asks me what I think about them when I first saw them, I would just say "You seem okay".
The truth is, when I first met someone, I usually don't remember them too well. Not their name, nor their face. I may, sometimes remember you after a long time of what you were wearing, or holding or doing when I first saw you. That is only, if I ever become close to you.

There is this girl in my campus. I'm close to her now. We've been friends since our first semester here. After a year and a half of being friends, I suddenly remember, during orientation week, there was this girl sitting next to me carrying the same bag my friend did. That's when it came to me "Oh, it was her then".

Then, there is the chain of first impression.
A friend of yours met someone. A new 'friend'. Then, when your friend came back, they will tell you everything of that person. Whether its love, hate, annoyed, blank or stupid and the list goes on and on. That's your friend first impression on he/she. But listening to their story, you'll feel like you already know he/she and you felt the same way as your friend. Your friend first impression was chained down to you.
It's like the feeling of hatred you felt when a friend told you about someone the loath. Without knowing who that person really is, you felt the same way as your friend, minus the real experience.
That's how the chain works.

I really don't like it when someone bad mouth a person they just knew.
You come back from wherever you were and you just bad mouth someone who, for a few hours, you think is lame, weird and a loser. Its not that I never bad mouth someone. Its just that I don't bad mouth them immediately after I came back from that first meeting. Its just rude. Even a whole year wouldn't be enough for me to really get to know someone.

This is why I'm super careful when choosing friend. By just listening at how they talk to you after some time of knowing each other, you can easily know.
If they came home and bad mouth a friend of him/her, how can I be sure he/her didn't do the same thing to me before?

Anyway, this is just an opinion from my point of view. You may have your own.

Don't bash me for wanting to voice out my own. 

Don't judge a book randomly

So, that's basically my way if saying Don't judge a book by its cover or its content. Looks may be deceiving. A person's heart is even more so. Some people may look great to our eyes. But to other people, they could already see flaws at first sight. Go to a book store and browse the fiction section. Then a book caught your eyes and it practically screams "Come on pick me up. I look interesting to read". Flip it through and some would say "Oh my God, this book is damn funny", and others, "This book is a joke".
        And the next thing you know, flaws will starts to form and "Oh my God" change to "This is a joke. What was I thinking?" We'll this case may only apply to certain kind of people like of those who hates chick flick book and bought a chick flick book.

Once upon a time, you met a person. At first sight you thought "She's okay".

Then one day, things change. She just suddenly became the coolest person you know. Everything that came out of her mouth just wows you. She mixes with 'the' crowd, she got the brain and everywhere she go, she'll be noticed.

But, after seeing so many great things about a person, you'll bound to wonder, "Isn't there anything she lacks?". Well, the trick is to never questioned. Because I questioned, it smack me right in the face.

Then, all those great things you used to see in her just vanished. Now, all the things that came out of her mouth just spells BULLSHIT to me. 'The' crowd she mix with? Well, that's just the ticket to the life she's having now.

Now now, I know what you're thinking. That's harsh. But, different people just see things differently. And you want to know what actually smacks me in the face? One of her act. It doesn't just smack me in the face by surprise, it almost got me into one hell of a trouble.

Moral of the story? Well for me it would be,

Never trust a person until you fully understands each other and has gone through thick and thin together. Cause that's what build a good relationship, for FRIENDS or LOVERS. 

Let's be friends :)

For as long as I've lived, I know that I don't befriend someone easily. And I literally don't have a so called 'first impression' towards anyone. If anyone asks, I'll say "Nampak macam okay".

Half a year, I'll be able to talk comfortably with the person. A year will make me able to trust the person to be around me often. More than that, I'll never forget that person face. I may forgot their name, but not their face. More than 5 year, I'll never forgot neither their name or their face.

Yes, apparently this is something I can actually say while I'm still . . . young.

Most of the first impression people have on me?

I look arrogant. Fierce. Unfriendly.

I definitely agree with all of the above. Unless you talk to me, you'll never know how I really am. So please do talk to me. Although I must warn you it'll be an awkward conversation at first, but if you're someone who is bubbly and talkative, I will be glad for your company.

There's this other thing. My stare. Sometimes I'll look at a person for one second, then turn back the other way like a snob. I actually do this quite often. Especially towards guy. I don't know why, I just do.

But,

if you ever, ever somehow make me grew a dislike feeling towards you, then I'm sorry but I'll hate you until you say sorry. I actually hate this one guy so so much just because he didn't say sorry after he pushed my hand when it was in the air while I was trying to put on my backpack.

Now, I feel full of loathe whenever I see his face.

Yes. I am vengeful person.

Sorry makes all the difference.

To a person like me

2011

Sup peeps.

So, I'm back at my college. Yay? Oh, well. I guess it's a good time to be starting class after a month and a half of not doing anything but eating and sleeping and gaining weight. Its 8.09am and I'll have class at 3pm later. I'm a little blurred about what am I to do right now. So, update. This blog was totally dust. Its like someone died in this or something and it's a little weird that bb Teah wasn't complaining. I guess she just got tired of telling me my blog was all dusty.LOL. Sorry babe. Something happened to my brain.

Since its only the first week, I'm pretty sure a lot of class will be canceled. Until then, I guess I'll be rolling on bed and of course, movie marathon. Whooop!

I have nothing more to say.

Until I have a damn good life ahead.

Goodbye LOVE.